it's almost the end of the year, so that means it's reflection time. 

well, without getting into specifics. i think what i learned most this year is that unbelievable things happen. and i understand that people throw around "unbelievable" like it's nothing. but i'm being serious, truly unbelievable things are capable of happening. 

i think it's interesting, that as you get older, you realize that you didn't know shit when you were younger. when you're 17 years old, you think you know some stuff, but you realize later that you don't. when you're 22 years old, you think you've got it sort of figured out, but you don't. i mean, how do parents not tell their kids "you don't know shit". if i have kids one day, how do i NOT just tell them over and over that they don't know shit. 

i remember in college, i read a blog of a really popular poker player, and one sentence always stood out to me, he said "you're going to get more unlucky then you thought was possible". i'll always remember that, i'm not sure why. now i know i'm a pessimist, but i think it goes both ways. i think it's safe to say now, that you are going to get extremely lucky in life, more then you thought was possible. but it's going to be harder to see the lucky instances then the unlucky experiences. everyone reading this has at least 10 things in their life that someone else would die for. you have above average athleticism? you lucky bastard. you have parents that you enjoy spending time with? you're lucky. you're asian and you don't turn red when you drink? you dodged a bullet there. you met someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with? wow, don't ever complain

you're going to get more unlucky then you thought was possible. and i think everyone has to realize this. everyone is both lucky and unlucky. superrrrr lucky, and super unlucky sometimes. it's going to balance out, and if it doesn't. if you really think the luck factor doesn't balance itself out, then you're crazy, or maybe just unlucky

1 month with kirkham. kirkham is a dog.

kirkham stays with grace in davis. so i only see him on weekends.

-he's been a great dog, no complaints.

-grace lovesss kirkham. no no, you don't understand. grace lovesss kirkham. they love each other. kirkham is a little baby when grace has to leave him. he'll start to cry as soon as grace leaves

-he is super calm, very rarely barks unless a new person comes into the house for the first time.

-he loves to cuddle

-grace always says that he is "soooo smart". a typical conversation goes something like this

go- he's sooo smart!

gm- no way, he's probably just average

go- how can you say that.

gm- i'm not trying to hate, but he's most likely just average. he's probably just as smart as any other terrier

go- ugh

gm- everyone thinks that their dog is smarter then average, but EVERY dog CANNOT be smarter then average

go- you're an idiot

-when we take him out for walks/poop. we grab the collar and stand by the door. MOST times he runs up to the door and he sits, and we put the collar on, and we go. this one time, grace was cooking so i was going to take him out. i grab the collar, walk to the door and bend down to put the collar on, i say "kirkham, sit". and grace turns around and she says something like "do not tell him to sit, he already knows!" (LOLL). As if i were insulting his intelligence by telling him to sit. sooo funny. just this past week, we were ready to go outside, and kirkham would not sit, and grace didn't want to say "sit", so we stood there for about 3 minutes. i didn't say anything because i didn't want to be an asshole, but in my head i was screaming "loltoldyou LOLTOLDYOU"

-when we adopted him from the oakland animal shelter, his name was Checkers. we said no thanks, and it's been kirkham ever since. and last week, i half jokingly asked grace "do you think he knows his name". grace said of course. and then i yelled "BICYCLE!" at kirkham to see if he would respond like normal..

 for the rest of the day, sometimes i would yell "kirkham" and sometimes i would yell "bicycle". it was really funny, but i think you had to be there. we must have said something similar to this 50 times. "BICYCLE....see he looked....Kirkham....oh there...he looked....Kirkham....see he looked again...Bicycle!!! he didn't look"

poor kirkham, grace and i were joking after, he was probably thinking "i thought my name was kirkham, but now these humans are calling me bicycle???"

-you don't understand how much grace loves kirkham, it's funny, she will always defend him. when grace is around, kirkham can do NOwrong. 

=when kirkham had an accident in the house. grace will say something like "oh, that was my fault, i kept him in too long". 

=when kirkham spilled all of grace's coffee in the car, it was the "stupid leash's fault"

=when kirkham destroyed Grace's keropi stuffed animal, i said "o0o0o0o0, kirkham fucked up"..

and grace said something like "well, how is he supposed to differentiate his toys from my toys...i shouldn't have left it out"

(i wrote this 2 weeks ago)
my dad called me last week and said his friend has 4 extra Giants tickets for the Thursday game, against the Diamondbacks at 12:45. ok great, russ jon grace and I will go. it's a beautiful day, the Giants are winning, then it's late in the game, and it's time for the kiss cam. grace and i pop up on the jumbotron/megatron

1. i enjoy watching the kiss cam. it's entertaining, and sometimes funny. i always watch it, isn't it the best in-between-inning thing? i think so. just before the kiss cam starts, grace turns to me and asks me to read this "super important" email. (OK, it wasn't that important..as i started to read the email on her phone, i specifically asked "what exactly am i supposed to be reading?"....and i remember i said it with a 15% attitude just because i'm a jerk). any way, i keep reading this email, and then i hear jon and russ yell at me "grant. grant. look,  you're on. grant"

2. i look up at the jumbotron and i see the side of my face. and then i'm 90% sure i said "oh shit". and then, i look to my left, and then back to the jumbotron, and then i look to the right, and then back to the jumbotron. i was trying to see which way the camera was coming from. (this all happened in about 2-3 seconds). but it's weird when you're caught off guard like that. in that 2-3 seconds, in my head. i wanted to be able to look at the jumbotron and see myself looking straight (which is obviously impossible)

3. then grace finally grabs my face. boom. and it's onto the next couple.

4. then it was over. i asked everyone how long do you think we were on the jumbo tron for, they said roughly 6 seconds. 

5. i want to see a replay. i was telling grace that i would pay to watch a replay of the kisscam from that game. i think i would pay $200. Why don't the Giants upload it to youtube. you bastards, i'll pay! just let me pay, give me the option.

6. we were so unprepared. it's disgusting. if i had to do it over again, i think a cool idea would be just to completely ignore the camera. like before the kiss cam starts, agree to something like "grace, so if they show us on the kiss cam, look straight and don't move. ignore the world and hold it for as long as you can. you can do it"

7. it would have been nice to be watching the kiss cam and see us pop up there unexpectedly. but grace just had to show me this super important email.

next time, i'll be prepared. but there won't be a next time. how did i not buy any jeremy lin rookie cards???

i've never played daily fantasy sports, but i like the idea of it. and i can see why it's so popular. 

1. it's bull shit that fantasy sports is considered a "skill game" and poker is not. 

2. i had a close friend play daily fantasy sports and tell me about it. i don't know much, but in my opinion....there's no edge unless you have some computer/algorithmic model to help. if you're a casual fan that watches a few televised games per week, there's just not enough edge. and even if you do have a slight edge against your opponents, it's not enough to overcome the entry fee

3. first off, i think 80% of fantasy sports participants think they are better then the average fantasy sports player. everyone thinks they are sharp. i think i'm sharp, and i'm probably just average.

4. but yeah, there's no edge in fantasy sports for 95% of people playing on these sites because you can't make mistakes in fantasy sports. in poker, if you're a bad player, you can make lots and lots of mistakes. if you watch a good player and a bad player for one hour each, you can SEE the mistakes the bad player makes. but in fantasy sports, it's hard to make biggg mistakes. most decisions are only slightlyyyyyy better then other decisions (the edges are so small).  for example, if my mom faced off against the best daily fantasy player in the world, she might win 40% of the time....but if mom faced off against the best poker player in the world, she might win only 2% of the time. it's too hard to mess up in daily fantasy sports

5. i think stories like this mail guy are slightly bogus. it's in Fanduel's best interest to make people think that "hey, even this mailman can make money, you can do it too try it today!!!" i get it, they have to market it that way. fanduel needs people to think that average sports fans can win (even though only < 1% are actually making money) if this mailman was seriously making decent money, would he really not quit his day job? 

6. i know nothing, but i think that there IS money to be made in daily fantasy sports, but you need to have some computer model that no one else has. that's your EDGE. i think less then 2% of players have a model this good. the rest of the 98% are passing money back and forth. you might win 54% of your head-to-head matches, but that's not going to cut it. the entry fees will slowly eat you alive (just like Fanduel wants it).

7. i'm not hating though, i like the idea. i just don't think an average to slightly above average fantasy player can make any money playing it. if you think of it as entertainment, then go ahead, play. but if you think you're sharp and can beat it, goooood luck

my top 5 favorite robin williams movies
5. Jumanji.
i thinkkkkk that we had this on vhs. i remember liking this movie, but being 10% scared throughout the entire movie. for some odd reason i'll always remember the riddle on the first roll of the dice..."in the jungle you must wait, til the dice read five or eight!"

4. Hook.
We had this movie on VHS, and i remember i would only watch the last half of the movie. the first half was boring as balls. the last half is awesomeee when he meets the lost boys and rufio.  and one of my favorite parts was when all the kids were eating the neon colored food and then they have a food fight.

3. Jack.
I loved this movie. funny and sad at the same time.

2. Good Will Hunting.
it never gets old. i can always watch it
my 3 favorite scenes are 3) when matt damon gets the girls phone # at the bahhh. 2) when robin williams tells the story of when he knew his wife was the oneeeee 1) the very end, when matt damon had to go see about a girl (what a line!)

1. Mrs. Doubtfire.
behind Teenage mutant ninja turtles 2 and Twister, this was probably the most played vhs for me.

i'm all in on the lebron/free agency news. if he goes back to cleveland, it's huuuuge. it makes me mad though, i want to see another ESPN special, The Decision 2. this time around, i'm probably going to find out through twitter or a text message, boringg. THE DECISION was amazing, and i want another one. 

for the past 3 months, i've been slightly addicted to chipotle. no, you don't understand. i've been eating chipotle 3-4 times a week for a few months now. i'll even eat it 4 days in a row and be very happy each time. 

-my normal would have to be "bowl for here please...brown rice...black...chicken...mild (*i point to mild)...corn cheese and lettuce...no (to chips or a drink)...no thanks (to the receipt)"

-i rarely go steak, the barbacoa is really good, and i just recently tried the sofritas (tofu vegatarian). it's amazing, it tastes just like ground beef, it's seriously amazing. 

-the average amount of people when i go during lunch is 17 people, and it probably takes 9 minutes til i'm in front

-it slightly irritates me when it's time for the beans, and the guy goes really quickly and a lot of bean juice gets into the bowl. i saw this one person order one time and he said "black beans, and no bean juice please". every so often i think about saying it, but i don't

-the shopping center trifecta.. chipotle, panda express, jamba juice

-jamba juice is so much better then boba. people who love boba are crazy...i mean, i'd rather have a coke zero over boba

i'm not a big starbucks fan, but i am a big coffee fan. if i had to guess, i'd say i go to starbucks 2.5 times per week (the turkey bacon breakfast sandwich is amazing). so i obviously buy giftcards on ebay for less then face value. grace drinks coffee too, so i bought her a $100 giftcard on ebay, for $78 dollars. cool, so every time that we go to starbucks, i get satisfaction knowing that i'm only paying 78% of the original price. simple

after work the other day, grace tells me something like "so i went to starbucks and my co-worker said he wanted a drink. so he gave me $4..."

i'm a dumb guy, so i said 'ok kewl, so you kept the change?'

she continued with "no, don't you see, he gave me $4 cash, and i paid for his starbucks with my gift card, he's paying 100% of his drink, and i'm paying with my 78% giftcard, and i'm keeping the difference $$$."

i was like. holy. shit. I was blown away, genius.. instaaaaa

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i was feeling lucky so i asked grace 'just a hypothetical, 'would it be ok if a guy bought his girlfriend a gift card for her birthday, even if it was 3X the value of a "thoughtful gift?"

she said of course NOT. 

oh ok, just making sure

 i remembered a gem the other day. i remember when i was 5 or 6 years old. i think derek and i both got cash drawers as a gift. i don't know what they are called. but you when you go to a school fair and you buy a soda with a one dollar bill. the thing where the dollar bills would be stored. that thing. derek and i both had one. and i remember, derek started this game. i would go in his room. i would bring my little cash drawer (filled with quarters dimes nickels and pennies). 

derek would set up buckets and bowls around the room. each bucket would have a different denomination. one bucket would be $0.10 and another bucket would be $0.50 and so on...we would sit on his bed, and we would take turns throwing marbles into the buckets. and for example, if i made it into a $0.50 bucket, derek would pay me $0.50. if you didn't make it into a bucket, no money changes hands. 

i remember always being happy while playing this game. but thinking back on it, i was 100% getting hustled. one hundred percent getting hustled.

 there's a 0% chance that derek would let me quit the game a winner. i assume we played until derek hustled enough money away from me. i was probably just happy to be playing with my older brother. 

i asked derek if he remembers and he said yes. i asked him how much he thinks he won from me. and he said we were "about even"

horse.....shit...

i was reading this article about introverts, i think the title of the article was "10 things introverts wish extroverts would understand"

and one of them said something like "what is so hard to understand? sometimes we just want to be in the same room with you, but that doesn't mean we want to talk to you"
i thought it was funny, and very true. sometimes it's nice to be in the same room with someone, but that doesn't necessarily mean i want to talk to you.
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just different i guess. i have the 4s and my battery life sucks. just on my way to work, my bus takes about 25 minutes, with a 10 minute walk. i leave my refugee camp with 100% and i get to work with about 62-65%. . but i'm the type of person...when i have 30-40% battery and i'm out in the world, i go into lockdown mode, i dim that shit to dark. close all my apps. you know, just in case i need to watch a really important youtube video or something.

but grace. we were waiting in line for this new boba place called Plentea. shit took probably 35 minutes, plus a 7 minute wait. while we are in line. she's on yelp with 3% battery left. i'm like whattttttt, are you crazy. 3% battery life and you're on yelp! and she didn't even dim her shit. wow. just different i guess

i just read the bill simmons column featured in the rolling stones. awesome
http://www.rollingstone.com/culture/news/bill-simmons-big-score-20140429

i learned a couple things. 

he has a stepdad, a source estimates that his salary from espn is around 5 million, and his wife's name is kari. 

i don't think people understand how much of a simmons fanboy i am. i will blindly agree and follow him. blindly. if he said he hates panda express and chipotle. i'd say i  absolutely agree, they're both disgusting.

i don't know if it's just me, but jalen rose has been slightly more annoying then in the past. i had to stop listening to his podcast, because it just started to irritate me. bottom line, i think he has great stories, very entertaining stories about his nba career. but as an "nba analyst", he's horse shit. he says all the safe things, he likes everyone, doesn't tell me anything i don't know.

i remember the last podcast i listened to, it was a couple months ago. he was talking about a prediction that he got right and he said something like "didn't i predict this exact outcome 3 months ago on this very podcast. did i not?? i said...3 months ago, on this very podcast. that so-and-so would lead his team to the playoffs...."

it's like, awesome dude, you got a prediction right. you're an "nba analyst", you are supposed to get a prediction right here and there, ACT LIKE YOU'VE DONE IT BEFORE. ffs

and how about his preseason MJ prediction. HE SAID HE THINKS THAT MJ WILL COME BACK TO PLAY FOR THE BOBCATS THIS SEASON. what???? he actually said this!!!!!!!!

i'm a hater and i know that. i think it's because i'm a simmons fanboy. so when they are together, i understand that they have to slightly disagree with each other. but as i'm watching it,  all i'm thinking is "jalen you're wrong, bill is right. jalen you're wrong, bill is right. jalen you're wrong, bill is right" the whole time

ok i'm done

when you're in high school or college, and there's a big test or midterm, when the tests get handed back, and you see your score. you can ONLY ask how other people did if you got a shitty score. if you got a good score, you CAN'T ask what other people did. that's just an asshole move. 

if the tests get handed back, and you get an "A", 96%. then you can't ask what other people got. 

but if you get back a "D", 64%, then you have every right to say "fuckkkkk me, i'm such an idiot". then you can ask how other people did. and if someone says "i got a 96%", then you have every right to say "stop bragging you dickhead"

i feel like this applies to other aspects of life. if you do something really well, then you shouldn't outright talk about it. but if you suck at something, then it's OK and slightly funny to ask about it

it bugs me when people exaggerate injuries. like, when someone gets hurt, and they exaggerate exactly how much it hurts, annoying. kids get a free pass. i was a younger brother , so i understand what it takes to survive. if derek even pretended to hit me, i'd yell "ouch. mom. derek hit me..." 

 i hate when basketball players fall to the ground, and look to be in extreme pain, then get up, smile and shoot their free throws. just generally speaking, i hate when someone experiences level 6-pain, but they act like it's level 8-pain. why not try and be tough. if you experience level 7-pain, why not try and be tough and make it look like it's only level 5-pain. 

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when i'm waiting for the muni or bart. and i see someone running alongside the train so they don't miss it, all i can think in my head is to say "you need to slow down, you're running like 2 feet away from falling into the tracks, and then what? tripping is so easy to do. all it takes is for you to trip one time, fall a little to the right, and you're on the tracks, boom. done. just walk please"

 i'm getting old..

1. the years are all blending together. 2011 2012 and 2013 all sort of feel the same. if something happened in the past 3 years, i can't quite tell if it was 2011, 2012 stuff, or 2013 crap.  but i heard it gets easier when you turn 26. right? 

2. i was at our basketball practice yesterday and i asked one of the kids where he was born. he said he was born in the Philippines. I said Oh shit, cool. then he said "yeah, in 2005". I was like whoaaaaaa.

i couldn't believe it, he was born in 2005. 2005! these young kids are born in twothousand and five. they weren't even born when Lebron was a rookie. so crazyyyy. what was i doing in 2005? driving around tracy in my jimmy listening to hoobastank and taking back sunday.

=my mom's birthday is coming up, don't forget don't forget

i started to read a new book, The Power of Habit, Why we do what we do in life and business.
i need to read moreeeeeeeee. i'm going to bring back the punishment bet. let's see, so if i do not finish this book by the end of March, then I have to go to the bank, withdraw 5 onehundred dollar bills, and leave them as tips in 5 random coffee shops not named Starbucks. i'm serious. end of march. booked
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i just caught up on HBO's true detective. it's solid
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i really really enjoy using double negatives. i feel like when you use a double negative the right way, it has so much more meaning. like if you're talking about going to a r&b concert and trying to convince someone it'll be fun. saying "there's no way you're not going to have a great time" is so much stronger then saying "it's going to be fun. trust me"

however, if you're super good at life like heisman trophy winner, jameis winston, you can use triple negatives. fucker tweeted this after the 9ers vs. seahawks game

Everybody gone talk bout @RSherman_25 interview but that's cause don't nobody don't wanna listen to what's #real they want a script.     -jameis winston
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i'm not sure if it's just me or not. but i seriously get a little star struck when i meet someone who went to yale, harvard, or stanford... like, if that ever comes up, my reaction is ALWYAYS "oh shit, wow". and then i ask some  stupid fanboy question like "wow, that's crazy. so what's it like? is everyone in your class a super genius?"




this is so funny. girls are not crazy at all. zero percent crazy. ZPC

my high score on flappy bird is 7.
at first when someone told me to download flappy bird, i couldn't get past the first tunnel once. i lost like 5 times in a row. i was frustrated and i quit. then i played later, and i couldn't get past the first tunnel again. then i heard of other people saying how frustrated they were with the game. then i realized something (or i thought i did). i thought that the game was a prank. i thought it was literally impossible to get past the first tunnel. here's how i thought the prank went down. you tell someone to play this popular new game: flappy bird. then  the person tries the game...but it's actually impossible to score...therefore making it super frustrating= prank

apparently not though. seven is my high score
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michael sam, possibly the first gay football player. i understand that the media has to ask questions like "will the locker room accept a gay player?"

 does the locker room even care. the only thing a football player is thinking about...is staying healthy and making the team (getting paid). that's the only goal. if you're a rookie nfl player, your career is almost over. the average nfl career is what, 2-3 years? there's no team chemistry like in baseball or basketball. i feel like in the offseason, a basketball player will work on his game and spend time with his teammates to build chemistry and hopefully win a championship.

but a football player isn't thinking about a super bowl or team chemistry. he's thinking about MAKING THE TEAM, and getting that paycheck, because it's not guaranteed. so if i'm a 3rd year football player and my team drafts michael sam. all i care about is me, i don't care about michael sam

the timing

so i bought my first box of girl scout cookies of 2014, and yes, they FINALLY changed the pictures on all of the boxes. what the fuck took so long? i wrote 2 blog posts about why they need to change the pictures. i'm actually a little disappointed though. when i get to know someone, and i'm feeling very weird, i love asking why they think the Girl Scout cookie box pictures never  change. oh well, let's just hope that they don't keep the same pictures for 25 years. and my 17th favorite question to ask people. What is your favorite girl scout cookie?    the correct answer: do-si-dos

i watched the Tonya harding/nancy kerrigan 30for30 documentary, The Price of Gold.

it's on netflix already! such a good documentary. so this event took place in 1994, i was 5 years old at the time. and for some odd reason, i remember my babysitter talking about tonya harding and how she was guilty blah blah blah. such a wacko/crazy situation. but dude, if i was over the age of 15 back in 1994, i would be allllll over that shit. this sort of reminds of the manti te'o story based on WTF-ness. and i was all over the te'o story.

there's no such thing as a unhappy person at a farmer's market. it's not possible, everyone at a farmer's market is very happy and cheerful. right? i mean, people don't go to a farmer's market JUST to buy fruits and vegetables. they go for the atmosphere, to talk to the vendors, to support the local businesses/farmers, to people-watch.  if you're unhappy with life and just need to go grocery shopping, then you go to safeway. if you want to be around happy people only, check out your local farmer's market

i'm not a huuuuuge movie fan, but i know enough. so when i heard philip seymour hoffman died. i knew that he was in a lot of movies. but the first movie that popped in my head was Along Came Polly. the basketball scene where's yelling "white chocolate" and "rain drops"

ALSO, i didn't realize (until i listened to Bill Simmon's podcast) that he was also in the movie TWISTER, as Dustin. I completely forgot. and not too many people know this about me, but when i was a kid, i was obsessed with Twister. obsessed

I remember when the Tracy Mall first opened, the big new movie theater opened. somehow my family got special tickets to be a part of the grand opening. We could watch any movie, and it was all you can eat popcorn soda and candy. anyway, we saw Twister, and i thought it was the best movie ever. best. movie. ever

I guess my mom bought it for me on VHS when it came out. and no exaggeration, for what seemed like 5-6 months of my life, i would watch Twister every single school day. i was such a little weirdo. I would wake up early, probably, a couple hours before i had to leave for school. i would make toast and i would watch the first 45minutes to an hour of the movie. then when it was time to go to school. just pause it.

and when i would get home from school. i would watch the rest of the movie. every single day. if you don't believe me, ask my mom. i promise! every single school day. anyway, philip seymour hoffman was pretty funny in Twister.

i'm not making this up. in santa barbara for jt's 26th birthday weekend. he gives me a late christmas present. i open the box, and it's 2 white turtle doves. the sames ones from Home Alone 2. you remember right...

what was my birthday gift to jt? i bought that fucker a TALKBOY that i found on ebay. 

2 gifts, 1 weekend, both from HomeAlone2. hilarioussss

i mean, if that's not a sign. then fuckme

-i'm going to try and say "you always gotta watch out for the quiet ones" as much as i can this year, just because

-people underestimate luck so much! to the point where it slightly annoys me, it also baffles me, and it also makes me laugh. after the 9ers lost the seahawks, i was listening to  sports radio and the guy says "when you lose 3 times in a row to a team at their stadium, that means they're just better, that's what it means, they're just a better team, plain and simple".

um no. first, football in general is a small sample. one season of nfl is such a small sample size, anything can happen. i mean, let's say we knew for a fact that the 9ers were going to win 70% of the time when they played the seahawks. then, it's perfectly normal for the 9ers to lose 3 or 4 or 7 games in a row. sometimes it's just luck. but i get, i get why people in sports media have to say its black and white, they have to attribute the loss to kaepernick's mistakes or whatever. but more times then not, it's always a shade of grey. it's not black and white

same with the stock market. people will say things like "oh wow, APPLE dropped like 5% today because of low ipad sales" or some bull shit. but in reality, it's not so black and white, APPLE might have dropped because of low ipad sales, it's possible. but to say that is the one reason why APPLE dropped that day, it's just ridiculous.

more times then not, it's a shade of grey

no exaggerations here

my favorite everyday watch has the Date and Day. so, it'll say Tuesday, 28. Or, it'll say Monday, 10.
i've had the watch for about 14th months and something started to happen back in December that has never happened before. so before december, i would set the Day and Date toward the beginning of the month, but it would never sync quite right. for example, when i'm at work on Tuesday, the 3rd. My watch would (incorrectly) say Tuesday, the 4th. Or it would say Monday, the 3rd. It would always be just a tad off. Or when it's a short or long month, i would be lazy and not change the date to start a new month. so since i sometimes like to think too much about worthless crap, i thought maybe my timing has been off. just a little bit, but always slightly off.

but starting in december of last year (2013), the day and date on my watch have been exactly correct, every single day. as i'm writing this right now, it says TUE, 28 (bingo). so perhaps, the timing is finally right. maybe things are coming together, maybe.. who knows? i don't. i guess all you can do is stay positive, trust, and have faith

i've been wanting to write this for a couple weeks. but just haven't got around to it. it would be quite interesting if i lose my watch tomorrow, or it gets stolen somehow. but that's ok, nbd. that would be ok with me. so many thoughts running around

-am i being racist if it bothers me when non-japanese people own a japanese restaurant?
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-i've been in documentary-mode (i'm all about that non-fiction) for the past couple months. i can't get enough. and a couple of people have asked me what are some good ones. this is what i've watched recently..that i recommend

-The short game (on netflix)
awesome documentary about some of the best kid golfers in the world (ages 6-10)

-Blackfish (on netflix)
interesting, about killer whales. and how they do flips and shit

-Secret state of North Korea (Pbs, http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/secret-state-of-north-korea/)
very very interesting

-To Catch a Trader (Pbs, http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/to-catch-a-trader/)
this is probably super interesting to me because it's about trading, but i think most people will enjoy it

-League of Denial (Pbs, http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/league-of-denial/)
football and concussions, ouch