that's about right.

i can't stand it. this is the highest level of tilt i've experienced in probably a year.

in november 2010, i posted this.
"There is a link to a new set of basketball set to release in October, AND IT BEGINS. I am SO ready to buy every damn Jeremy Lin basketball card that I possibly can.
http://www.sportscardradio.com/index.php/product-previews-a-reviews/706-201011-panini-limited-basketball-box-checklist"

in December 2010, i posted this.
"Watching Jeremy Lin miss 3 consecutive free throws against the Spurs was brutal. I haven't bought any of his basketball cards on ebay because i figure that all the crazy Asian fans would overpay for the first couple sets. Buuuuuuuuut, I think it's finally time to go crazy."

and here i am, the peak of linsanity, and nothing to show for it. for some reason, i checked ebay again yesterday. $3 cards were still selling for $200 plus. and National Treasures rookie cards, that I could have bought for $30ish, areselling for $1,900+ consistently. ouch. i just keep thinking in my head--that's about right.

i feel like this whole LINsanity movement was meant for me. i can't even imagine how much money i wasted on cards when i was a kid. not that i would change anything about it, i had lots of fun. but i just feel the basketball card gods we're trying to give me a break. they were trying to help me out. they were discussing "you know that mizuno kid, he spent a shit-ton of money when he was a kid. let's help him out here, he blogged that he is going to buy a bunch of Lin cards. we'll make them CHEAP FOR A YEAR AND A HALF (A YEAR AND A HALF???! ugh), he can load up. and when linsanity takes over america in february 2012. he'll cash in. he deserves it". other god says "but wait, are you sure that he will buy a bunch like he claimed?" "of course, he loves the card hobby, and when JLIN first played for the warriors, mizuno was one of those crazy asian fans that would get excited when jeremy would just be dribbling the ball, trust me, it's a lay-up, even mizuno can't miss this one"

fast forward. . even when we were in chicago last summer, scott pointed out a jeremy lin autographed rookie card in the $5 box (currently selling for $250+), i asked the dealer if i could get it for $3 (knowing that i could buy it on ebay for $3. AND i was trying to practice my pawn-stars negotiating skills). he said no, i walked away. that's about right. this was a lay-up. my entire card collecting career was leading up to this point, and i blew it. i choked. the moment was too big. i guess i wasn't ready for it. but the bad part is, it's never happening again. never.

jeremy lin's middle school yearbook just sold on ebay for $4,800. it's signed by jeremy. just ridiculous, 4,800!? i went to monte vista middle school, there's a 0% chance that anyone in that damn yearbook becomes even somewhat famous. it's ok, that's about right.

and the weird thing is, i buy some stupid shit sometimes. i was at walgreens the other day buying toothpaste and q-tips. i randomly see this Ear-Wiz ear wax remover (google it), it was $6.99, and i insta-bought it without thinking twice. how could i not buy anyyyyyy jeremy lin cards. that's about right. by the way, that ear thing doesn't even work

jeremy lin is going to haunt me. of course he can't just get better slow and steadily. he has to start off with the big ass bang. this is bad, i truly am happy for him, but all i can think about is how i DIDN'T benefit from all of this. selfish. i guess i could always be thankful that i was there when he tore up john wall in summer league. but that's worth zero dollars. that's not going to inflate my paypal account.

ok, i'm over it. i feel better now. just kidding, i don't feel better. FUKK